Hi, my name is Chloe Wilder. This is my blog page where I want to explore my voice, share my knowledge, express my creativity, build a community, help others, and create a space where all my loves and passions intertwine. And this is my story.
Something about me is I was someone who was uncomfortable in my own body, didn’t know how to stand up for myself, didn’t know my opinions, didn’t know how I felt. I was not my authentic self and I had no idea that there was another way to live. I was that shy girl who never spoke for fear of being wrong or judged, so afraid of taking up space and people’s time, putting everyone else before myself. I was too afraid to ruffle any feathers so I stayed in my comfort zone. I followed a path that was not meant for me, never doing what truly felt right, always doing what others expected of me- my family, society, friends, and even strangers. I moved through the world afraid of the unknown, not following my true potential or any path not already neatly paved. I looked around for other people’s opinions and what I could do to be accepted by others, always playing it safe. I thought so little of myself. I believed that I wasn’t worthy of doing what I wanted to do, what truly made me happy, or that I wasn’t capable of making it in this world- because of my family’s economic status, because I was an introvert…I thought I didn’t have the social skills to make connections or nail interviews. I grew up ashamed of any part of me that wasn’t “normal”, not knowing that I was here only to be me, that I only have those parts of myself because they’re meant to be shown and expressed in this world.
Being raised in a household where family came before anything else, even yourself, was a huge reason I was a people pleaser and lost my sense of self. All of this led me to my healing journey, to why I am here today and have the knowledge and experience I do, but it was definitely not an easy ride. The reason I’ve had to work so hard to have unconditional love within myself is because I felt my worth was attached to what I could do for others, to my achievements, to staying on the path society deemed acceptable for me. I am now on a journey to recovering from burnout because of this mentality and more. Guilt, blame, and pretending were rampant in my childhood. Eventually, I had to decide to unlearn my coping skills and want more for myself and my life. I didn’t want to feel like a burden any more than I had already felt. I wanted to question it all, something I was strongly advised against. In the end, I was faced with a choice between turning a blind eye and repeating my family’s patterns or choosing myself.
Despite all of the hard times, I have been so lucky to take a path that has led me to such a freeing and healing life where I’ve had the chance to reparent my inner child in the way I always needed. I had a lot of guilt about being “lazy” when in reality I was just a projector in human design. My energy and the way of life that works for me really go against the way society works and the go go go of it all. But I am so grateful to embark on this new journey where my lifestyle finally matches what I need and want from life, one where I get to learn, create, grow, and help others along the way.
I have recently realized my love for systems and that my brain works differently than others around me. I am so incredibly grateful to have the opportunity to honor my unique gifts and passions with this blog. I really want to help others begin their own journeys of healing, self-love, finding themselves, and creating a life they love.
I want to have this be a reliable site to help reduce the overwhelm that comes with just starting out.
I have always had this want to give people advice and share my knowledge, but a lot of times it has been to people who don’t want it, are not open to it, and don’t appreciate it. This blog to me is where I can focus that energy and actually help others who are seeking it out instead of always putting it in the wrong places. I’m excited to bring my love for beauty and aesthetics together with my love for knowledge, learning, and advice.
Growing up, I always wanted to be an interior designer and loved makeup, hair, and beauty, always pretending I had a youtube channel. As I got older, I became interested in self-help, then spirituality. I have spent the past couple of years diving into everything spirituality, healing, personal growth, and becoming your authentic self, and I just want a place to share all the information I have learned and will keep learning.
Writing is definitely not something I would have ever thought I would be doing, especially as a living, and especially out of school. But, I’m going to take this chance to get out of my comfort zone and find my voice. I’m excited for the growth that will come with this path, the community I will build, and the fun I will have being creative all while helping others. I will be trying my best to be vulnerable on here, so maybe you all won’t feel so alone in what you’re going through. I will be healing my own hurts while hopefully teaching you the same as I continue to grow and learn.
So, I mark this blog as a place for me and anyone who wants to join this family to do what scares them, to be authentic, to face the unknown and the parts of yourself you’re not proud of, follow your heart, put yourself first, forget what society and others’ expectations are of you, and do what you love unapologetically. With that said, I officially welcome you to Blooming in the Wild. <3
